Idk if I’m ready..

So today I figure out if I’m still a milso.. My bf in the Air Force wanted a break and today I’m going over with our son to talk… He says he’s lost feelings for me =\ and it honestly feels like they still haven’t come back.. We’ve only been separated for 5 days.. But today I’ll know the truth. I’m so nervous and scared right now.. I’m really feeling like its over but I’m hoping for the best.. I’m not sure if in ready to hear the truth..

So Breysen is really immature.. And on top of that he’s a hothead, very stubborn and prideful, refuses to be wrong, he’s a big douche sometimes..

.. But he’s really sweet and romantic when he wants to be, he can make me laugh when I’m suuuuper mad at him, he knows how to take care of me, he spoils me a lot! I feel protected, like nothing bad can ever happen to me when he’s holding me.. I’m so happy he’s the one I fall asleep next to and wake up to..

We fight a lot.. I don’t know how the heck we made it through all the bullshxt.. But we did somehow.. And I can’t help but feel we really were meant for each other..

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❤❤❤

❤❤❤

I wish he was here 😔

Even though I’m mad at him.. I still wish he would just come home to apologize and let me know he loves me =\

Look who I get to wake up to ;)

Look who I get to wake up to ;)

Look who I woke up to today ;) oh I’ve missed this!! 

He’s so tired 👽💤

Look who I woke up to today ;) oh I’ve missed this!!

He’s so tired 👽💤

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Breysen very very tired.. LOL.. So happy he’s home ;)

Breysen very very tired.. LOL.. So happy he’s home ;)

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This is not a very good picture no thanks to my photographer.. LOL! But it’s the only one he got of us.. This is when he finally arrived 😝 my world is complete..

This is not a very good picture no thanks to my photographer.. LOL! But it’s the only one he got of us.. This is when he finally arrived 😝 my world is complete..

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Getting ready to pick up daddy from the airport ;) #abu’s #milso #airforce #usaf (Taken with Instagram)

Getting ready to pick up daddy from the airport ;) #abu’s #milso #airforce #usaf (Taken with Instagram)

Yayyy 😜

My Airman is graduating right now from tech school ;) wish I could be there! Congrats baby 💋

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Well, time to pack up my stuff and clean my room.. My airman comes tomorrow and I’m moving in with him ;) woohoo!! 😌❤👍 tomorrow night I don’t have to sleep alone! I get to sleep in his arms!

Well, time to pack up my stuff and clean my room.. My airman comes tomorrow and I’m moving in with him ;) woohoo!! 😌❤👍 tomorrow night I don’t have to sleep alone! I get to sleep in his arms!

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Gahhh!! Is this real?! Lol!! Finally down to two days! ;)

Gahhh!! Is this real?! Lol!! Finally down to two days! ;)

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Being silly ;)

Being silly ;)

Ahhhh!

I absolutely can’t wait!!! My airman comes home in 5 more frickin days! 8)

5 MORE DAYS!!

He always makes me smile ;)

He’s so silly but sweet..

He always makes me smile ;)

He’s so silly but sweet..